"tempat sial memang tempat sial."-i shall remember dat.
things have change latelie. love to friends to self. we showed how bitchy we are arent we after dat nyte? ouh well, dats just people. and i take dat as a NORM.
im so tempted to try things. life havent been nyce for me. not a wonderful year to begin with.. not a wonderful journey to walk. full of shame, pain and regret. my ouh my. pretend everything is going to be fine. everything will be just wad i dreamt when i was a lil kid.
that stoopid fairytales. urgh. "....and they live HAPPILY EVER AFTER." NOT how i wish my life is dat easy. where everything is well plan. my head is so heavy. i have been turning to THINGS and now i look aneroxic. *roll eyes*
i swear, i need to talk. i need to share. but to whom? i noe i can no longer share with neither u nor u. but to u again i whine. *sigh*
"My dream is to fly Over the rainbow so high"
yes... a bloodie song that stuck in mind fucking mind dat remind me of that WONDERFUL event.
bby will u hold me close to u again and let me cry without u asking me why. i just need to cry.
momie,will u do the same? let me cry in ur arms. just like when im a stoopid toodler?
will u let me cry to dad??
i noe only u will listen. only u will never ask me why. just like yesterday.. u never ask me why. u just look. and pat my head. and we dance after dat. only u can do dat. and i thank god i STILL have you.
wadever that is going to happen we let it happen. but i shall held my head up high.
ofcox i was the CLOSING CEREMONY to all events that is planned. the starting wasnt sweet. cox i was already fighting. ouh my halfway to the party, it was already cock up. most of the time i was lost. i dun even noe y i was dancing with her or him. and i was caught RED HANDED. *ouch*
well it was still a nyce party afterall. cox dat make all of us stronger even it was shyte!
and to those WHO THINK IM A PARTY CRASHER, SORIE LAH KAN... tkde niat pon lah kan... nk ckp depan2. and farah, please... dun lie bout wad u said. cox i realie dun tink it was dem lah kan.. but i still love u lah!!! can??